Once again, I don't know if anybody's gonna read this at all, but I'm way too desperate to display my struggle.

On my birthday of 2016, I got my Alienware PC for the first time. It worked fine and it lived on for 7 years. But at the end, it started to slow down in an irritating speed and I stopped using it when I reset everything. I had to transfer all my old stuff to a 4TB disk drive just to keep all the 6 year history of that PC, and after that, I tried to use the PC for one last time, only to have changed some specific setting that made the taskbar completely unusable and broken. That was when I had to take it out.

So a few weeks later, my mother bought a Corsair PC. I was expecting it to be a lot faster (it was, but slightly), and I thought I was gonna be much happier, but it's nothing special. My experience with the Corsair was also brief and I just got more exhausted to the point where I've decided to ditch Windows 10 (A computer I've been using a lot and have been stuck to) in return for another computer with Windows 11 (I thought Windows 11 would be bad, but it couldn't, right?)

Because of how slow my PCs have been getting, I tried putting limitations to what I do on them: I kept everything on the aforementioned storage drive, and when I do the work, I use the files from that drive onto the application, namely when I make music. Even then, I have some huge OCD about my computer's speed and my computer in general, creating some troubling tactics of my current state of touching a PC.

My mother wasted over $3000 dollars on a PC I barely even used at all, and now she's gonna have to return the PC, get her money back, and then save at least more money until getting another computer, in which I have no expectations for how fast it is or how my reaction to Windows 11 would be, since I never even used Windows 11 completely.

I really miss having a PC. I wish I could do a lot, animating, drawing, making jams, doing graphics, recording audio, and anything I could do on a PC ideally meant for fast, efficient use, but all I have is an iPad, which I feel kinda comfy with (I do that a lot, sadly).

P.S, I'm thinking of giving my old Alienware to one of my grandfather's technician friends (Grandpa's a pretty good inventor BTW) so he could put some more storage and a faster CPU, maybe a newly installed Windows. I don't know if that'll happen though.

P.P.S, this all reminds me of my first blog post and one of the drawings I did lol

P.P.P.S, I might have to switch to Linux if nothing even works anymore. Linux won't be the same, but I have to try it out to see how I feel...